December 2011
1 post
Battling Post Partum Depression
I never thought that life after giving birth is this difficult. My whole pregnancy was not difficult at all. Even my 13 hours labor was a piece of cake (thanks to my anesthesiologist :p ). My first 24 hours with our little angel was indescribable. The happiness and excitement we felt is something we can’t compare with anything. Then came his first cry that we couldn’t control. I just...
April 2011
1 post
To My Dearest "Tatay"
It’s been more than 8 years and until now I’m missing you still and missing you more… my ever loyal father who always defend me from everyone even to my mother. You’re more happy than me when I’m joyous… and you’re more sad when I’m down and lonely. I’m missing you so much… Why can’t I feel the same for her… The openness we...
December 2010
1 post
Agree and Disagree
Almost ruled by negativity. My notes a few hours ago and my stand for now:
1) He’s not just into you/Just a movie
2) Hunted by the past/Don’t let past ruin everything.
3) White light blinking makes me paranoid/Change the color? :)
4) So wrong/So what’s so right?
5) Depresses me/Will make me more sad
October 2010
2 posts
Four days straight and promised not to take any alcohol except for isoprophyl :)
It started with me getting “praning” and thinking of something that shouldn’t be thought. Not being contented of what I have and hurrying things. Expecting too much and getting frustrated at the end. Then I snapped out it. Or should I say my friend had me realized to take it slow and just go with...
Happy Thoughts...
1) When tatay bought me my first camera with 110 film and out of 12 shots, I took less than 5 successful photos harhar
2) When nanay bought me my first car.
3) When tatay allowed me to get my drivers license.
4) When I was allowed to go out of town with J’s family (back in college)
5) When I first got super drunk and made a scene in front of starbucks 6750 (hahaha kadiri but laugh trip)...
September 2010
1 post
Rules that I shouldn't break...
1) No texting during office hours (except lunch break, merienda and yosi breaks hahaha)
2) No texting beyond 8pm on weekdays
3) Smile less (kse mukha kang loka loka)
4) Lessen mood swings (5 in a day instead of 10???)
5) Think less. Be contented. Don’t expect too much.
June 2010
9 posts
For 22 years we celebrate father’s day and my birthday together with a ton of crowd. And I hate it. Long que in restaurants. Longer serving time of food etc. etc…
But I missed the days. I miss my “tatay” so much. My brother is such a bad company during father’s day.
My Palawan Trip
1) For you to enjoy it, you must be a nature lover.
2) Someone should also invent fly repellent lotion coz the whole island is not just mosquito infested but plenty of flies too (coz it’s rainy season already).
3) Geckos don’t bite they are just one scary “noisy lacoste” (term from B).
4) If you travel alone it’s either you’re broken hearted or you’re...
I Just Realized...
1) I need a place where I can go to whenever I don’t want to hear my mother’s ranting, see my brat niece, see my lazy brother etc etc. I just want a peaceful place.
2) I hate my job coz it’s just income generating and I’m stuck already. No growth.
3) I want a simple life. I want to be domesticated.
4) I want my own life. I don’t want to live day by day coz or for...
…Back in Manila and I need to prepare BR “shits” for some account!
…Got first hand experience with a “tuko!” My neighbor “tuko” boarded my room. And worse, it stayed at the door! How can I ask for rescue?! 2 minutes or so it went above the tv so I was able to get out and ask for help. But I’m still frantic that another “tuko” is boarding my room :(
…blogging on top of Jonera Hill to have signal. My skin is burned to the max. Did island hopping and met nice people. But most of the time they are asking why I’m alone. Hahaha I’m tempted to make up a funny story… I’m about to get married and I ran away hahaha but my face looks funny whenever I tell a lie :)
Anyway, did a lot of snorkling today. But had the hard...
…Did town tour today with my hotelmates. Our tour guide calls them F4 hahaha and one of them looks like Watse Lei (don’t know if I got the spelling right). Climbed Mt. Tapyas! Freaking 700 steps! And steep stairway hahaha
Went to hot spring after. And temperature is boiling 38 degrees. Anyway, it’s therapeutic but makes me perspire with just half an hour swimming or should I say...
…Just arrived in Busuanga and Globe signal is kinda weak. But luckily even if it’s only 1 bar signal, I have BIS connection.
Airport is quite far from the hotel (as one officemate told me). Winding road is making me sick. I wish I’ll be at the hotel soon and check what items I forgot to bring.
While on the plane I just figured out that I forgot my tripod, ipod case, and dvds to...
My Crazy Vacay...
A dingy idea a few months ago and now I’m here off to the always forgotten province of Luzon…
Many says I’m such a wierdo to travel alone and my “nanay” can be the president of the cartel :)
Anyway, I’m here at the airport and will be off to my destination in an hour.
Supposedly I’m late but my flight was rescheduled 30 mins late. I’m eating my...
May 2010
5 posts
So loving looklet :) →
Irony #2. Wanted to go out with my friend to eat dinner and have some chitchat. But I also want to catch up with my officemates as well. Cancelled both coz I want to clean my car. But it rained so I just stayed in the office and decided to do my client’s sales analysis. And the best part! I was not able to do it coz of bad internet connection in the office!!!
Ironic day. Bought a kid a lunch meal. And it feels so good to help even if its just one day of not being hungry. Tonight I almost punched some kid who punched my side window just because I was not able to give him some money. :(
A family friend is dying and his favorite sister can’t go home coz he’s the only one who sends her a ticket to go home. My nanay said such a tragic thing to happen. He have his own empire here and one of the most respected person in his field of work. His whole family depends on him. But what will happen to them after. So sad. But only miracle will save him. And I pray for that...
March 2010
1 post
March 18, 2003
Around four in the morning I was awaken by my cousin’s crying and I know that instant that the 48hours given to us had already elapsed. We quietly sob and pray while his heart beat slows down. He exhaled his last breathe peacefully. I know there will be no more pains for him and his only pain is seeing us sad.
Seven years had passed and that very day is still fresh in my memory. And every...
February 2010
3 posts
I’m on thin ice again and one wrong move I’ll be frozen… like an ice waiting for some heat to melt.
I don’t want to be on the same situation which happened a year and a half ago. I don’t want to inflict pain to my family again. Those were nightmares of the past. Some bad dream that I already woke up to.
But same symptoms are happening. Manifestations that I want to...
This week was like a tropical depression… No typhoon but so rainy for me. I’m on depress mode for no concrete reason. Is it just because I’m overwhelmed of the work load that was left for me? Or is there something I keep on denying?
Anyway some realizations and unforgettable incidents:
-most of the days I’m sick… Aftermath of salescon
-some moron scratched my...
January 2010
3 posts
Doing a good deed
Today, me and my friends joined an outreach program with the Asilo kids. At first I’m a bit hesitant coz it is my first time to really treat the kids out. Though it’s been a yearly event that my family goes to hospicio, this year is really different. Before, it’s more of feeling obliged to continue my tatay’s good deed of donating. And that’s about it. I thought a...
Some things don't really change
Maybe things didn’t happen as expected and there are friendships that were lost… But happily found again.
Things are not the same again. No more late dinners, no more movie bondings, no more late night chats, no more parties that we go together… Things that I didn’t realize when it is still there.
Time passed and we let days go by without words of explanation. There are...
Maybe This Time
Two old friends meet again
Wearin’ older faces
And talk about the places they’ve been
Two old sweethearts who fell apart
Somewhere long ago
How are they to know
Someday they’d meet again
And have a need for more than reminiscin’
Maybe this time
It’ll be lovin’ they’ll find
Maybe now they can be more than just friends
She’s back in his life
And it...
December 2009
2 posts
Christmas '09
Less than a week vacation and I’m gaining weight rapidly tsk tsk… Coz of these:
1) 24th, ate with Aye and it’s an ultimate pig out! Found an excuse coz we swam for an hour and half. Salad, 2 pasta meals, cheese cake and lots of focaccia bread :D
2) Christmas Eve, ate pasta and jolly chicken yum yum
3) Christmas in Bulacan means PG (patay gutom). Liempo, Sinampalukang manok,...
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November 2009
6 posts
My Christmas Wish List
1) Body shop’s aqualily
2) Body shop’s Japanese cherry blossom
3) Trash can for my car
4) Car seat cover
5) Benetint
6) White shorts
7) Denim clutch
8) Gel pens
9) Tempur pillow
10) Flowers
Most of all I want less gastos and a good vacation.
Usapang Chubby
“Chubby na nga chappy pa ang line.” “Wala namang masama sa pagiging chubby, kaw lang nagiisip na negative.” “Masama lang mga taong nag tatanong ng weight ko?” ”Oh, wala din masama dun ah :)”
In short need to hit the gym tom hehe
October 2009
9 posts
I Miss You
Emo moment… Misses alot of people lately. Of course number 1 in my list is my Tatay. No single moment that I didn’t miss him ever since he passed away. Weird, though, I missed Jeff last week. Or maybe the feeling… Teeny bopper lovelife :)
Suddenly I wished I’m some Rosenan student. “Bida” in card reading… Sleeps in Filipino, Math, Physics and Religion...
What is love?
Paranoid
After Ondoy, there was Pepeng and now another storm Ramil (Lupet). I am really getting paranoid and then Philvocs is warning for a “might” happen 7.2 intensity earthquake to hit Metro Manila. Oh mother earth, you must have hate us so much, that’s why you are punishing us?! :( Or I guess, we still haven’t learned and still continue to ruin mother earth. But if there is...
confusing...
tumblr interface confuses me but I like the lay-out and colors :)
Bad Influence
My boss told me I’m a bad influence… first ebay and now iphone games